Well here I am day 1 Post Op
Yesterday March 6th 2012, I had a Bunionectomy w/Osteotomy & plate fixation surgery on my right foot. You never know what you had til you can't use it no more :(. I never take my life, limbs, and well being for granted, but at this moment I am wondering WHAT WAS I THINKING???/ I swear the pain, is unbearable, the only time I feel relief is when I am sleeping. I feel like such a burden, I am normally really independent and never relying on anyone to do simple things for me. I guess I am feeling a little down....well actually a LOT DOWN. My husband is wonderful, don't get me wrong, but he is not the best caregiver. He has had numerous surgeries and I have been hands on with everything, I mean he NEVER had to ask for so much as a toothpick I had it set up, I don't want to sound like Debbie Downer but geesh! I just want to be pampered while I am in pain! thats not to much to ask for......right? Then there's my mom, she stopped by for all of 10 minutes last night, stood in the doorway, I thought she would have come in sat on my bed stroked my hair.....ok maybe that is a fairy tale, but at least sat down and talked to me or just sat with me, she did get me a glass of tea and ask if I needed anything......yeah a HUG! I thought she would have called me to check on me today....NOPE NOTHING, NOT EVEN A TEXT! I know she is busy at work but damn it I am here only child! Ugh I guess I am just feeling some kind of way, I am in pain, I am dependant on others to help me with basic things like going to the bathroom and at some point I will need a bath or a wash down..... UGH I HATE THIS FEELING, just thought I would blog a little and relieve some of the stress I am feeling! Thanks for listening, guess I will take another pain pill, prop my foot up and go back to sleep....oh the joys of growing older
